The only way to save a heart is to break it instead.

We sure had to say goodbye in a devastating way.

A way that still breaks my heart when I think about it.

I don’t think I was ever quite ready to say goodbye to you the way we did.

I suppose life sometimes carves the path for you, whether you like it or not.  And so it seemed easier to erase all I had and was still connected to you by. To disregard in an instant, people and someone, that meant so much, is incredibly painful.

I’m not quite sure if two people that still love each other when they said goodbye, a million miles a p a r t, could have expected healing to come swiftly, or easily, or at all. But life doesn’t work that way, I know this now. Sometimes you don’t get the goodbye you want. Sometimes you don’t get the answers you seek or need. Sometimes you only get a short, designated amount of time with someone. You will come to regret not always sharing the best version of yourself with someone but will be so grateful regardless, that they saw the beauty in your short-comings at the time. Thank you for that. I don’t know if I ever got to say that… I suppose I only ever could realize these things now, being in such a different space and stage in my life. I believe we did what we thought truly was for the best at the time.

I suppose the best way to save our hearts was to break them instead.

If you must only know this; I am ever a changed person for having gone through what we had – both together and a p a r t.

So, for everything you were and aren’t, thank you. I feel like I have lived a lifetime in getting to know you and having to let you go. I hope you know that for all you meant to me—and despite a goodbye to you still remaining a most difficult thing—I wish you a beautiful life out there.

Now and always.